thanks mom

i hate those moments you believe you could be happy, and then someone goes and ruins it. thanks mom

Sometimes I Run

Sometimes I stare at myself in the mirror. And i don't see anything worth looking at. It's just -- I can't see the beauty in  myself anymore. I used to think I was good enough/prettyish, but now it's just not there anymore. I just see -- well not exactly ugliness, just boredom. I guess after 14 years of looking at myself in the mirror, I've finally had enough. I wonder if that's possible. If you can actually be bored with who you are, and what you look like. Well it is, cause here i am doing it.

You're Too Pretty For Me

Everytime I see a baby, I can see the good in the world. Then it starts drooling. And I come down from the metaphorical high I was put under by a belief that maybe everything was ok.

Everytime I open my heart, I get burned. Cause everyone around me carries matches.

It's my fault. I left myself vulnerable. I put my guard down, and once again they attack me. There's no safe place.

See, there's this thing about me. No matter what's happening in my life, I expect to be dissapointed. Usually it works out for me, but then today....I guess I forgot. I allowed myself to be happy that we were gonna do this thing, but then this person i was gonna do it with changed their mind. And it hurt so much. Cause they took my happiness away.

I am so stupid.

it hurts. alot. like theres nothing there.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009 at 9:04pm

I know I have a heart cause i can feel it b r e a k i n g

more ppl should like patrick star

SPONGEBOB: I'M MAD




PATRICK:ME TOO



SPONGEBOB: WHY ARE YOU MAD?



PATRICK: I CAN'T SEE MY FOREHEAD



awe:)

cheesecake is gooood

twenty years from now,


its not gonna matter where you got those jeans,

or how you wore your hair one day.

its not gonna matter who won that soccer game in decemeber of '09, in P.E

or who was talking sht behind your back.

its not gonna matter what those jerks about you,

and the boys who broke your heart aren't gonna matter either.

twenty years from now, its not gonna matter whether or not

you got your shirt at Hollister, or Walmart.

So let it go, because twenty years from now,

its not gonna matter.



but you know what does matter?

the ppl, who spend their time tring to make you laugh, and smile, and make you happy.

hmm kinda like cake.... yes absoketluty cake is what really matters



it makes you laugh cause you can throw it at ppl

it makes you smile, because it looks yummy

it makes you happy, because its cake!!



yep in twenty years we'll still want our cake. and eat it too. i never understood that. if you buy the cake you can eat it. or share it and eat it. but no matter what you eat it. even if your just a delivery person.



omg i love carrot cake!!!